Written by Edrelyn Musa (BLIS 4th year student)
Slowly taking a deep breath, I opened the email I received. The subject line says “Final Interview Result”. It’s been three days since I sat down for a panel interview. It’s my first time applying for a job. I had to put a hold on my studies due to financial issues. I’m supposed to be in my final year in college but the school didn’t allow me to enroll because of my previous dues. I was a working student. Juggling between work and school posed a serious struggle for me. And when my finances weren’t able to cover all my expenses, I had to look for a full-time job and set my education aside. I can hear my heart beating fast as I start reading the content.
Dear Ms. Musa,
We regret to inform you…
My heart shattered into a million pieces, tears splashed down my eyes. I failed. The feeling of disappointment and sadness covered me and I couldn’t help but blame myself alone for the failure. I should have researched more about the company; I should have practiced answering possible questions. Perhaps my prayer wasn’t that sincere that God didn’t hear it. I made a lot of scenarios in my mind on what could have gone wrong and what I could have done better. At that time, I thought about giving up. The idea of trying again wasn’t in my vocabulary. I was scared of another rejection and I told myself that I am not good enough to get a chance to work in a corporate company.
Failing can also be God's answer to our prayers
As I contemplate on the news I received, I realized that this might be God’s answer to my prayers. The job is not for me and He reserved something better. It’s often hard for us to understand why heartfelt, well-intentioned prayers seem to go unanswered. There are times when we pray sincerely for something just for it to go seemingly unheard, our natural response is to rebel against God. We should always remember that God’s will is better than us. If we ask anything according to His will He hears us, 1 John 5:14.
Failure Is God’s Way of Saying, "Have Faith and Never Give Up"
A week after my first rejection, I sent my application letter to another company. I embraced the possibility of another failure but my heart is not anxious anymore. Doubt is long been gone. True failure is not even trying to get back up but just quitting. 1. Jeremiah 8:4 Jeremiah, say this to the people of Judah: This is what the Lord says: You know if a man falls down, he gets up again. And if a man goes the wrong way, he turns around and comes back. I find peace in the gentle knowing that God will never fail those who put their trust on Him. When our intention is good and sincere, He will hear us. God is always near and if ever you fall and cannot get up, He’ll pick you up. On my second try, I got the job!
We all fail at some point in our lives. No one is perfect. Even the greatest scientists fail. All the things they invented were a product of many trials and errors. Failing teaches us a very valuable life lesson. It’s a learning experience so we can do better next time. Our failures can help us grow in both our personal and spiritual life. God will help us when we do fail. Remember if we do fail, He has a good reason for allowing it to happen. We might not comprehend it at that moment, but God will prove to be faithful in the end. It is my sincere hope and prayer that our failure stories will bring us closer to God.
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